Alright, y’all. Please excuse the ill fitting undergarments. I have other bras and boy shorts, but these were the ones I took them in the beginning. Anywho, here are my stats…

Age: 21

Sex: Female

Race: African-American ( Black) 

SW: 274.0 lbs

UGW: 140.0 lbs

I still don’t have any goals or rewards set out. If anyone wants to message me any ideas, I am all for it. I’d also like to thank y’all for following my blog and continuing to encourage me and put up with my constant flip flopping and binging. I honestly would’ve deleted if it weren’t for y’all! As for diet, I don’t know about keto. It worked for me, but I have such a hard time staying with it. I think i am jumping too far into cutting out things and I don’t believe that is helping me mentally. Does anyone with PCOS or insulin resistance know of another diet that isn’t hard to stay on?

posted 3 weeks ago with 8 notes

Becoming a vegetarian????

What would y’all think about me becoming a vegetarian? Has it helped anyone with pcos? Has it helped anyone with weight loss? Has it helped anyone’s skin complexion? Are there any books or youtube channels I can check out? 

posted 2 months ago with 1 note

Hey, check out Finish Line Feeling!!!

She is 21 and has lost 112 lbs!!!!! She still has a bit more to go (41 lbs) and would love some followers/support. Check her out :D. 


posted 2 months ago with 3 notes

What’s going on with me? ( Weight Loss Wise)?

Alright, so you guys have probably noticed I have updated about this particular situation. Well, here is the deal. I have failed to keep on track with my diet once again. It’s really gotten to a point where I sat down and asked myself today….

" How bad do I actually want to be healthy?"

My answer was bad. I want this SO bad…. HOWEVER I also recognized that no matter how bad I want it that if I do not put in the work it will never happen. I am restarting keto tomorrow. There is no reason not too. There is no reason to allow myself to spiral deeper into my weight problems, health problems, and mental problems. If I don’t do it now, then when? Time will pass me by and I’ll be regretful and upset. 

If anyone has any tips, please give them to me? I am open to all and any types of criticism also. 

P.S. I weighed myself ( it was after dinner) and I am 274 lbs. I am literally almost 300 lbs. Not only is that frightening mentally, the weight is showing physically. I am tired all the time. I can’t even do simple things without getting winded…. It’s getting difficult to just live and it shouldn’t be like that. 

posted 3 months ago with 3 notes

So… I’m going to make an appointment ….?

My friend suggested that I make another appointment at the hospital to talk about wls again. I think I should too. That’s what I want. Wish me luck y’all. I will update again once I have gone to my appointment. If anyone has any tips for me, please send some. 

posted 3 months ago with 2 notes

Restarting …. Again

It’s like I can’t seem to stay on track :(. Anywho, here are my new stats….

SW: 270.0 lbs
GW1: 260 lbs
GW2: 250 lbs
UGW: 140 lbs-150 lbs

It sucks that I got above my highest weight (260) :(. It sucks that I just let it go on because “what’s the point?”. That type of mindset is holding me back. Literally, nothing is holding me back but me and my negative mindset. :/

Also, I will have more goal weights I just didn’t feel the need to write them all out….I might do it in the sidebar of my tumblr though? So, back to posting 90% fitspo/exercise/body inspirations/ weight loss advice and keto!!!! Keto was hard to stick to, but it was so incredibly worth it. I felt better, I looked better, and my PCOS was getting better!

posted 4 months ago with 3 notes


Other people: “So, I have been dieting and things are going ok. I lost 1.5 lbs and I have dropped 7 dress sizes and lost 50 inches.”

Me: ” I haven’t been dieting and I’m pretty sure I gained a lot of weight back :/.”

Yeah, I haven’t been dieting or exercising. I gained weight back too. I have to restart again. I’ll most likely restart on Friday. I need to break myself of the mindset that new things happen on Mondays. I also need to break the habit of using the excuse “I don’t have the time”.

I’ll give stats and new weight on Friday.

posted 5 months ago with 4 notes

I try to be as honest as possible :/?

Still haven’t started my diet or change in eating. I just can’t seem to make the jump. I haven’t stepped on a scale either. I’m kind of scared to. I know I have gained a lot back though, because I just feel so swollen and sore     :(.  

Maybe I need to change from keto? Or maybe not be so hard on myself? Is there anything that y’all do to stay on track? 

P.S. I notice my blog reflects when I am on my diet and when i’m off. When im off, I post so much non-weightloss related stuff :/. I need to stop that. 

posted 6 months ago with 3 notes


I wish I could diet normally and see results, because sometimes keto sucks so much. In keto, when you take a cheat you feel crappy, you gain about 2-3 lbs in water weight, and you have to use extra days to get back in keto. 

Sometimes, I wish I could just have a fast food meal and then move on, but with keto is this whole elaborate process :/. 

posted 6 months ago with 19 notes

Restart tomorrow

Nothing like going to the mall to motivate myself back into dieting. Restarting keto tomorrow. It needs to be done. I haven’t completely strayed from keto, but i definitely haven’t been as strict as I should’ve been. Anywho, 3/15 will be day 1 again.

posted 7 months ago with 2 notes

Working Out?

I don’t understand people who feel good after working out? Like I want to punch someone when I’m done. I don’t want anyone to talk to me. I just want to sleep or relax.

Is there some secret to it? Or like do I have to trick myself into being happy about it…..

posted 10 months ago with 5 notes

Shin splints…

Pretty sure I haven’t worked out in over a week…… and yet I feel like I have really bad shin splints. Is there a reason for that or do I need to hit up the hospital? 

posted 1 year ago

Wish I didn’t :(

I wish I didn’t have PCOS, so I can just diet like a normal person. Today  I planned on making a low-carb stroganoff and it came out higher in carbs than I wanted it to. The problem is I found this out as I was shopping for the food to make.  I ended up aimlessly walking around the store for an hour  trying to think of a different dinner I could make without going carb crazy :/. I hate this so much. 

The only plus is that tomorrow I start upping my metformin to two a day instead of one. 

P.S. I also found out I am only 4 lbs lighter than my dad…. My dad is like 6’1” so…. that happened. 

posted 1 year ago with 4 notes


Shoutout to all the dudes and dudettes who worked out today :D. Great job! Serious guys <3 Awesome. 

posted 1 year ago with 2 notes

Day 3 of Keto :)

I am almost coming to a close of my third day. Got some chicken thighs baking in the oven. I think I may have gone over my carb allowance though :/ not by much ( like 5), but still…… 

Although, feeling good :). I haven’t had any bread, pasta, carby fruits/vegetables, or anything. The most carbs I have had have come from green vegetables like kale, lettuce, cucumbers, etc :). 

posted 1 year ago with 4 notes