Alright, so you guys have probably noticed I have updated about this particular situation. Well, here is the deal. I have failed to keep on track with my diet once again. It’s really gotten to a point where I sat down and asked myself today….
" How bad do I actually want to be healthy?"
My answer was bad. I want this SO bad…. HOWEVER I also recognized that no matter how bad I want it that if I do not put in the work it will never happen. I am restarting keto tomorrow. There is no reason not too. There is no reason to allow myself to spiral deeper into my weight problems, health problems, and mental problems. If I don’t do it now, then when? Time will pass me by and I’ll be regretful and upset.
If anyone has any tips, please give them to me? I am open to all and any types of criticism also.
P.S. I weighed myself ( it was after dinner) and I am 274 lbs. I am literally almost 300 lbs. Not only is that frightening mentally, the weight is showing physically. I am tired all the time. I can’t even do simple things without getting winded…. It’s getting difficult to just live and it shouldn’t be like that.
My friend suggested that I make another appointment at the hospital to talk about wls again. I think I should too. That’s what I want. Wish me luck y’all. I will update again once I have gone to my appointment. If anyone has any tips for me, please send some.
It’s like I can’t seem to stay on track :(. Anywho, here are my new stats….
SW: 270.0 lbs
GW1: 260 lbs
GW2: 250 lbs
UGW: 140 lbs-150 lbs
It sucks that I got above my highest weight (260) :(. It sucks that I just let it go on because “what’s the point?”. That type of mindset is holding me back. Literally, nothing is holding me back but me and my negative mindset. :/
Also, I will have more goal weights I just didn’t feel the need to write them all out….I might do it in the sidebar of my tumblr though? So, back to posting 90% fitspo/exercise/body inspirations/ weight loss advice and keto!!!! Keto was hard to stick to, but it was so incredibly worth it. I felt better, I looked better, and my PCOS was getting better!
Other people: “So, I have been dieting and things are going ok. I lost 1.5 lbs and I have dropped 7 dress sizes and lost 50 inches.”
Me: ” I haven’t been dieting and I’m pretty sure I gained a lot of weight back :/.”
Yeah, I haven’t been dieting or exercising. I gained weight back too. I have to restart again. I’ll most likely restart on Friday. I need to break myself of the mindset that new things happen on Mondays. I also need to break the habit of using the excuse “I don’t have the time”.
I’ll give stats and new weight on Friday.
I wish I could diet normally and see results, because sometimes keto sucks so much. In keto, when you take a cheat you feel crappy, you gain about 2-3 lbs in water weight, and you have to use extra days to get back in keto.
Sometimes, I wish I could just have a fast food meal and then move on, but with keto is this whole elaborate process :/.
So, restarting at 251 lbs :/. Pretty sure it’s water weight, because I have only been off for 2 days. Anyways, back on and I need to keep track of the days.
No more cheating during today and July 23rd. I can do it. I know I can. I just need to take it more of a day by day instead of looking at it as 4 1/2 months. By the end of this month, I want to be at least 235 lbs.
Recording everything I eat and I am cutting back on things like eating out ( unless I am out with family or friends), processed foods, and artificial sweeteners. Also, not eating beyond the hour 8:30 pm. It’s not that food can tell time, but your body does know when there is food in your stomach and going to sleep.
Does anyone has any tips for me?
Roasting more cauliflower! At the end, I pretty much kept to my macros, stayed within my calorie limit, and didn’t go over my carbs :D :D. I think I like tracking now. Like I legit like seeing myself make goals. I like the effect of tracking too. I know I am not going over my calorie or carbs anymore :).
The only thing I need to work on is drinking more water. A wonderful girl recommend some teas, so I am going to go out and buy some soon. YAY! Yay for being on track.
P.S. If you are looking for a sign to get back on track, this is it!!! Take this as your sign. WOOT WOOT.
I need to go out and buy more pre made hot wing, because I love eating them. They are 3 carbs for 7 pieces like what!?? I’m making some right now :). I might have some veggies after this though, because I only got like 400 calories today. I know that is way to low.
This morning, I had bullet proof coffee and that’s it. I spent the rest of the day struggling to eat, because nothing sounded/looked good. So, green bell peppers and onions with cheese after this later on tonight. It’ll be a while before I got to sleep…. So, yeah. I might even make some peanut butter cookies.
Anywho, had a cheat meal while out with my family. I asked a couple of friends and they suggested a cheat meal or for the rest of the holidays.
I thought I would’ve been ok, but I’m really not. I’m already kind of freaking out about what I’ll weigh tomorrow. So, I’m getting right back on keto tomorrow and through Christmas break. I need to be at my goal weight before my 21st birthday. I really do.
So, yeah. Back to counting calories, grams, and macros.
I don’t understand people who feel good after working out? Like I want to punch someone when I’m done. I don’t want anyone to talk to me. I just want to sleep or relax.
Is there some secret to it? Or like do I have to trick myself into being happy about it…..
At my doctor’s appointment, the nurse who took my stats said that I was just shy of 5’4”….. Every year they tell me that I am 5’5”…. When the hell did I shrink a whole foot? Is there a way I can get a correct measurement? Because this could change a lot in terms of what I want to weigh.
My doctor told me to restart my metformin at 2 pills a day, everyday. I took two after I came back home from the hospital. It is wrecking havoc on my stomach :/. TMI moment…. but going to the bathroom has not been pleasant. Unfortunately, that isn’t a reason to get off the medicine haha. I know it’ll help me in the long run though when it comes to food.
Just ate my dinner… best steak I have ever had. It was amazing! <3 Making it again tomorrow with strawberry cheesecake <3. If things go well, i’ll post pictures tomorrow cause I didn’t get to it today.
Gonna make strawberry cheesecake today :D. Which means I gotta keep carbs at a low today. For lunch I might make steakums plus bulletproof coffee and then for dinner a ribeye.
EDIT: No steakum…. maybe but with very little green bell peppers and onions… like half of what I usually make.I’ll also post a pic of my food today, because I haven’t done that in a while.
Hella excited to go home and drink a buletproof coffee <3. Super hella excited to eat my ribs w/ butter on top for dinner. Negative hella excited to do my homework that is due at 11 pm tonight. bleh :/