Alright, y’all. Please excuse the ill fitting undergarments. I have other bras and boy shorts, but these were the ones I took them in the beginning. Anywho, here are my stats…

Age: 21

Sex: Female

Race: African-American ( Black) 

SW: 274.0 lbs

UGW: 140.0 lbs

I still don’t have any goals or rewards set out. If anyone wants to message me any ideas, I am all for it. I’d also like to thank y’all for following my blog and continuing to encourage me and put up with my constant flip flopping and binging. I honestly would’ve deleted if it weren’t for y’all! As for diet, I don’t know about keto. It worked for me, but I have such a hard time staying with it. I think i am jumping too far into cutting out things and I don’t believe that is helping me mentally. Does anyone with PCOS or insulin resistance know of another diet that isn’t hard to stay on?

posted 3 weeks ago with 8 notes

Guess who just took update pics!!!

THIS CHICK!!!! I took them in the same bra, but not the same undies. I wanted it to be comparable to my last check in. I’ve gained a lot of weight back :/. I honestly kind of have abandoned my entire weightloss journey. It makes me sad that I kind of just gave up, but I am getting back on track! Tomorrow, I restart! I don’t know if I will be doing keto yet… I loved it, but I don’t know? Maybe I should just do “clean eating”. I’m still deciding. 

Anywho, I’ll have them up tonight with new stats and new goals. Also, ignore the way my undies look in some pics. I bough them too big and forgot to pull them up before I took the pic, lol. 

posted 3 weeks ago with 1 note


Did y’all know that tumblr is out here scanning each pic you upload for branded content????

Stuff like this make me want to delete my tumblr ASAP. I may create a different platform somewhere else for my weight-loss journey. Please be careful with what you upload here. 

Here is an article: [ X ]

posted 1 month ago with 6 notes

Becoming a vegetarian????

What would y’all think about me becoming a vegetarian? Has it helped anyone with pcos? Has it helped anyone with weight loss? Has it helped anyone’s skin complexion? Are there any books or youtube channels I can check out? 

posted 2 months ago with 1 note

Hey, check out Finish Line Feeling!!!

She is 21 and has lost 112 lbs!!!!! She still has a bit more to go (41 lbs) and would love some followers/support. Check her out :D. 


posted 2 months ago with 3 notes

Weight loss/ keto update?

Weight loss update: I’m not gonna lie to you. It hasn’t been going well and what I mean by that is awful :/. I’m pretty sure I am in the 270’s and that my pcos ( and it’s symptoms) have gotten worse. 

Keto update: I am actually going shopping today to restart ( again :/).

I’m not proud of either update, but it needed to be put out there. 

posted 2 months ago with 1 note

What’s going on with me? ( Weight Loss Wise)?

Alright, so you guys have probably noticed I have updated about this particular situation. Well, here is the deal. I have failed to keep on track with my diet once again. It’s really gotten to a point where I sat down and asked myself today….

" How bad do I actually want to be healthy?"

My answer was bad. I want this SO bad…. HOWEVER I also recognized that no matter how bad I want it that if I do not put in the work it will never happen. I am restarting keto tomorrow. There is no reason not too. There is no reason to allow myself to spiral deeper into my weight problems, health problems, and mental problems. If I don’t do it now, then when? Time will pass me by and I’ll be regretful and upset. 

If anyone has any tips, please give them to me? I am open to all and any types of criticism also. 

P.S. I weighed myself ( it was after dinner) and I am 274 lbs. I am literally almost 300 lbs. Not only is that frightening mentally, the weight is showing physically. I am tired all the time. I can’t even do simple things without getting winded…. It’s getting difficult to just live and it shouldn’t be like that. 

posted 3 months ago with 3 notes

So… I’m going to make an appointment ….?

My friend suggested that I make another appointment at the hospital to talk about wls again. I think I should too. That’s what I want. Wish me luck y’all. I will update again once I have gone to my appointment. If anyone has any tips for me, please send some. 

posted 3 months ago with 2 notes

Restarting …. Again

It’s like I can’t seem to stay on track :(. Anywho, here are my new stats….

SW: 270.0 lbs
GW1: 260 lbs
GW2: 250 lbs
UGW: 140 lbs-150 lbs

It sucks that I got above my highest weight (260) :(. It sucks that I just let it go on because “what’s the point?”. That type of mindset is holding me back. Literally, nothing is holding me back but me and my negative mindset. :/

Also, I will have more goal weights I just didn’t feel the need to write them all out….I might do it in the sidebar of my tumblr though? So, back to posting 90% fitspo/exercise/body inspirations/ weight loss advice and keto!!!! Keto was hard to stick to, but it was so incredibly worth it. I felt better, I looked better, and my PCOS was getting better!

posted 3 months ago with 3 notes


Other people: “So, I have been dieting and things are going ok. I lost 1.5 lbs and I have dropped 7 dress sizes and lost 50 inches.”

Me: ” I haven’t been dieting and I’m pretty sure I gained a lot of weight back :/.”

Yeah, I haven’t been dieting or exercising. I gained weight back too. I have to restart again. I’ll most likely restart on Friday. I need to break myself of the mindset that new things happen on Mondays. I also need to break the habit of using the excuse “I don’t have the time”.

I’ll give stats and new weight on Friday.

posted 5 months ago with 4 notes


I wish I could diet normally and see results, because sometimes keto sucks so much. In keto, when you take a cheat you feel crappy, you gain about 2-3 lbs in water weight, and you have to use extra days to get back in keto. 

Sometimes, I wish I could just have a fast food meal and then move on, but with keto is this whole elaborate process :/. 

posted 6 months ago with 19 notes

Keto: Day 1

So, restarting at 251 lbs :/. Pretty sure it’s water weight, because I have only been off for 2 days. Anyways, back on and I need to keep track of the days. 

No more cheating during today and July 23rd. I can do it. I know I can. I just need to take it more of a day by day instead of looking at it as 4 1/2 months. By the end of this month, I want to be at least 235 lbs. 

Recording everything I eat and I am cutting back on things like eating out ( unless I am out with family or friends), processed foods, and artificial sweeteners. Also, not eating beyond the hour 8:30 pm. It’s not that food can tell time, but your body does know when there is food in your stomach and going to sleep. 

Does anyone has any tips for me?

posted 7 months ago with 9 notes

Cauliflower and Myfitnesspal.

Roasting more cauliflower!  At the end, I pretty much kept to my macros, stayed within  my calorie limit, and didn’t go over my carbs :D :D. I think I like tracking now. Like I legit like seeing myself make goals. I like the effect of tracking too. I know I am not going over my calorie or carbs anymore :). 

The only thing I need to work on is drinking more water. A wonderful girl recommend some teas, so I am going to go out and buy some soon. YAY! Yay for being on track. 

P.S. If you are looking for a sign to get back on track, this is it!!! Take this as your sign. WOOT WOOT. 

posted 8 months ago with 2 notes

I need to go out and buy more pre made hot wing, because I love eating them. They are 3 carbs for 7 pieces like what!?? I’m making some right now :). I might have some veggies after this though, because I only got like 400 calories today. I know that is way to low. 

This morning, I had bullet proof coffee and that’s it. I spent the rest of the day struggling to eat, because nothing sounded/looked good. So, green bell peppers and onions with cheese after this later on tonight. It’ll be a while before I got to sleep…. So, yeah. I might even make some peanut butter cookies. 

posted 8 months ago

Cheated :/

Anywho, had a cheat meal while out with my family. I asked a couple of friends and they suggested a cheat meal or for the rest of the holidays.

I thought I would’ve been ok, but I’m really not. I’m already kind of freaking out about what I’ll weigh tomorrow. So, I’m getting right back on keto tomorrow and through Christmas break. I need to be at my goal weight before my 21st birthday. I really do.

So, yeah. Back to counting calories, grams, and macros.